Today.

The first thing anyone asks me when they find out I’ve lost as much as I have is, “How did you do it!?” Of course I’ll get to that, but I feel like I’d be remiss not to first show you where I am today. When you’re losing weight, whether it’s a large or a small amount, the day to day actions kind of feel insignificant. You make better choices, you mindfully decide to be more active, but the change happens gradually. It’s not until you step back and look at where you were that you can finally appreciate how monumental the change has been.

I’m not perfect. I’ve had a lot of victories, but I’ve also had a fair amount of failures. In the same sense, my body is not perfect. It never will be, and that’s okay. It’s the only one I have and I’m growing to love it– not in spite of its imperfections, but because of them.

I’ve treated my body pretty poorly in the past. This last year has been my most sincere apology to it. Every positive choice I’ve made has been a little love note. A whisper of I’m sorry. And, thankfully, I think it’s finally starting to forgive me.

So. In treating my body with respect, I went from this…

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320 lbs. Shortly after I had started losing; my first Dietbet weigh-in.

To this: (Please be kind– this is more than I’ve ever revealed before, but what’s the point of this blog if I’m not honest with myself and all of you?):

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220 pounds of imperfection. But you know what? I’ve never loved my body more. Yes, I still have a lot of fat to lose, a lot of muscle to gain, and loose skin? Well… it’s going to happen. It’s not ideal, but at the same time, it’s the body that housed my daughter for 9 months. It made her strong and healthy, despite the poor treatment it received. It’s the body that she hugs, kisses, and thinks is beautiful. It hasn’t given up on me, and I’m not giving up on it.

Here’s a better comparison of just how far I’ve come. Compare

The change comes gradually. It’s important to take a moment to step back and look at all that’s been accomplished. Though from moment to moment it doesn’t always feel like I’m doing anything particularly amazing, 110 pounds is a huge achievement. And honestly? I’m not special. I truly mean it when I say, if I can do it, you can too.

Next up, I’ll discuss just what I’ve been doing to shed all of this fat.

Take a moment to look back at the beginning of your journeys, and compare with where you are now. How far have you come? I’d love it if you shared your victories!

A quick note to any of you who are just starting out: Take good before pictures! Get out the good camera, put on a sports bra even if the thought repulses you, (or for the gentlemen, take off your shirt) and take a picture. Front, side, and back. You’ll regret it later if you don’t.

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10 thoughts on “Today.

  1. SO impressive and brave and real. Loose skin happens, but it shows a strong body forming with all the work. Thank you for showing what huge strides look like!

    I agree about before photos. I really wish I had taken some when I was working with some fat and zero muscles. Now it’s too late, but there’s something really inspiring about being able to do a comparison and see how far you’ve come, especially during those tough workouts or moments where you just want to slag off the healthy choices.

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